As I was going through pictures to post on my instagram story from this past year, I came to realize that I really didn’t have that great of a year. My pictures are all with the same couple of people, 2 of them are my friends but the other 2 are people that I have let ruin my confidence, self-esteem, and heart for the past 2 years. I realized how much time I have wasted on people who didn’t appreciate me, who didn’t appreciate all I did for them, who didn’t appreciate how much I loved and cared about them.
It’s a common thing for me to say that I’m done with a person and then in a couple weeks or months they come back into my life and I let them destroy me all over again. I’d be lying if I said that the next time they try to come back I won’t let them, because I don’t know how I’ll feel or what will happen in the future. But, I can tell you that I will go about things differently.
Stop accepting crap and start demanding more
I’m always accepting crap from everyone around me. I put in a lot of effort and love towards people and they give me the bare minimum. They treat me like a back up plan or an option. If I put them first, they usually never put me first. I’m going to start demanding more. Demanding more respect, more love, more effort, and if they can’t give that to me then that is their problem and I don’t need that in my life. When you accept crap, it takes away who you are as a person little by little. You start thinking that you don’t deserve what you think you deserve.
Staying fit and healthy
My gym routine is not regular. I go through these spells where I want to go every day and then randomly I can’t even get myself to get up and go to the gym. A lot of the time, I lose my focus if I hurt myself, which I do a lot because I’m extremely accident prone. I sprained my foot falling off of my horse, so I haven’t been able to work out all break, so once it’s no longer in pain, I already know how hard it is going to be for me to get back into a routine. Staying health is something else I need to work on. I eat a lot of junk, things I really shouldn’t be eating. I have the tendency to eat when I’m bored or much on stuff when I’m studying and of course I love drinking sugary coffee, which that can really add on the pounds. I really want to try and eat better, but I know that it’s going to take time and that I can’t cut out everything at once. I want a good gym routine as well.
Good study habits
This past semester I did so much better than I have in the past year or two. A lot of my failures I will blame on someone who I let tear me down for the past two years. There were times when I wouldn’t get out of bed all day because I was so torn down and depressed. I’ve constantly let him get into my head and mess with everything in my life which resulted in me doing awful in school. This past fall, he was still around, but I didn’t let him affect me like I used to. I was studying a lot. I found good places to go, which I found coffee shops are my favorite place to study. This next semester I want to continue with that but also find different ways to make studying easier.
I have so many more resolutions and I could go on and on about them. But I don’t want to bore you! I hope you have an awesome New Year and that you also have your own resolutions. If you have any tips/suggestions for me, especially with working out, healthy eating, study habits, etc, please let me know! I could use all the help I can get.